Mother’s Day
Sometimes the parental holidays can be complicated and difficult for some of us.
If you can relate, i invite you to write about it, talk about it, get that energy out. Don’t hold it in. Watch an unrelated sad movie and get the emotions flowing. Move the energy that rises up. That’s healing, when we can feel without running away.
Sending you all my love.
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This is what i ended up writing about it: (bc it’s complicated for me too)
What a complex road motherhood is.
Coming from a long history of repeating generations of cycles, motherhood was either going to make or break me depending on how much of me own shadows i was willing to be with along the way.
Each milestone has been so beautiful and tragic at the same time. Grieving the life i never had while i give the life i dreamt of to my own daughter. Healing and haunting simultaneously.
I have mended some of the pains with my own mother as i have worked in my own wounds. Opening my hart a little more each time i do the work, and that opening is what has invited the energy of forgiveness.
Am i still in grief often? Yes.
Does it drown me the way it once did? Not at all.
Motherhood made me who i am. Made me softer, kinder, more fierce and less afraid of myself. But motherhood has also brought up childhood suffering from deep within me i tried my whole life to forget.
Grateful and grieving concurrently.