3/21
I usually post these a lot earlier in the day, however, today was so beautiful. I have been out in my yard since about 930 this morning.
Gardening has always been a source of Zen for me and I like to use it as my meditation and grounding time when I’m feeling a little disconnected from myself. I’ve mentioned in a couple posts on my socials that I’ve been reading a book that has been a little triggering and brings up some traumas from my childhood. So spending the whole day gardening was a good way for me to reenter myself since I’ve been feeling a little insecure.
Whenever emotions or memories from my childhood come up, they are usually coupled with feelings of shame. Those feelings of shame when I water them often sprout feelings of insecurity and unworthiness. These have been very alive in me the past week so I’ve been trying to take special care to tend to them.
I hope that you all did something in the sunshine for at least a minute today. And I hope that we have many more beautiful spring days ahead of us.
